To My Future Self

Dear Claryn,

When you read this, you are in probably good health. Going about your daily life and thinking about what to do for the weekend. You are probably planning for your next trip with Marc or probably thinking of how to earn more money.

You are not going to think about how it is like to feel sick or how your body betrays you with illness. But I just want to remind you today, that you should be very grateful for your good health. Not having any sinus, headaches, coughs, gastric pains, vomiting sessions or flu. None of that. That’s God’s blessing upon you that you should never take for granted. When life isn’t as exciting as you wish, think of this. You are healthy and that’s a lot to be thankful for!

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Needing Some Downtime

My desk is filled with books, papers and random things that I can hardly see the surface of the table. My clothes are all over the chair and floor because I was so busy picking out a dress for a wedding dinner last Saturday.

I’m at this point where I’m so frustrated over the mess! Argh… and I feel that this reflects the current state of my personal life. I have so many questions, doubts and uncertainty on life. I have so many things going on, trying to settle it one by one. Oh gosh, why is adulting so hard? 😦

Then, I realise that I’m soooooo frustrated because (other than adulting problems!) it’s been WEEKS or probably months since I got to do what I really like. Responsibilities have been full on. My colouring book is half done, my brush pens are stored in one corner while the sewing machine is right in front of me; reminding me that I’m abandoning this hobby which I used to love years back.

I hardly have any down time for myself. 

No time for exercise. No time for reading. No time to blog. No time to practice the guitar.
NO TIME.

So, screw this adulting for a little while and let me indulge in some art for a bit. I finally understand how art can make such a huge difference in a person’s life. It inspires, it allows time for reflection, it recharges and it BUILDS.

AHHHH… 

So good. So good to be writing 😀
Now I’m all smiles again!

Life Lessons from a Car Accident

I got into a car accident just a week ago. I was taking the usual route back home after work, a route which I have been taking for the past 3 years. Suddenly, this young lady hit my car from the side as she was turning out and I couldn’t even avoid her.

Now, the case was very clear but because she was driving a BMW, I was of course intimidated and I allowed myself to think that maybe it’s both our fault. I decided to lodge a police report after much contemplation (more like advice from wiser people). It was a long stressful night as I was accident free for a very very long time, so I’m unsure of what to expect.

Everyone who saw my car told me that I didn’t need to worry because the damage of my car would be able to justify the story. It would be a straightforward simple case. But no, I told them I was sceptical because the system can actually fail you. Read More »

A story of a Boy

It was 7 p.m., just 30 minutes short of everyone breaking fast. Just like everyone else, we were seated at our tables with our plates filled with food, patiently waiting. This unusually quiet 7 year old boy who was two seats away asked for permission to use the washroom with his friend and so we let him.

5 minutes after, the two boys came back panting and they were so eager to tell me of their misadventures. I listened intently and observed that the boy was missing his two front teeth. He was so cute when he laughed.

However, beneath all the laughter, I wondered how it must be like for him back at the children’s home. He has been there for the past 3 years and I’m pretty sure his teeth-dropping experience happened in the home. 

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The Art of Doing Nothing

For a girl who can’t wait to retire early so she can be a tai tai and do nothing all day, I don’t do very well with an empty schedule. I come up with to-do lists when I have free time so that it would be a productive day, or so I hope. I put literally EVERYTHING on my to-do list, even relaxing things.. like putting on a facial mask! Lol. Unfortunately, when I only cross out half of what I’m supposed to do, I feel like I have failed and I bring these to-do items forward to the next day and the cycle continues.

Now, before you judge me.. I do this because I have zero discipline in life. Unlike my husband or any other normal human being, I do not have a single routine I keep in life except going to work and church. My shower time is never consistent, my order of getting ready is never the same nor my choices in life. One day I can be waking up at 6.30 am and the next day at 7.00 am. I hate routines.Read More »

10 milestones in 2016

I usually do this every year end to reflect how the year has been. Clearly, this is wayy past December and we are now in February March. Talk about being efficient, eh? To be fair, January was a crazy tough month which I will leave it for another time but I’m going to stick with this just because.

#1 – We got married!

2016 was all about wedding planning and getting hitched. From managing our parents’ expectations to finding a venue that fits to finding good people to work with, man..it was tough work. Planning a wedding was really difficult for us, especially with so many limitations but in the end, it was really about learning about how to work together as a couple. It was also a testing time for our closest friends who helped us out because there were just sooo much to do, but we’re glad that together with Jesus, it all came together in the end. Now, we get to wake up to each other everyday, snoozing our life away.. Hahaha…Read More »

The Wedding Planning Journey

I’ve been meaning to write this for the longest time but you know, there are more important things in life like..wedding planning. 😛 We’re half way there and it’s little more to crunch time now. Kinda regret that we chill so much last year and only started preparations this year. Procastination habit dies hard, haha. Oh wells, but still do-able! 🙂

Gotta admit it was pretty stressful in the beginning, but much better in the recent month. If a bride-to-be says that there are no stress moments throughout their wedding planning journey, they are lying. Unless they hire a wedding planner. Or maybe they are just men living in female bodies. ANYWAY, that’s not the point.

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10 milestones in 2015

Happy Belated (veryyy belated!) New Year, guys!

Time..has..gotta..slowwwwww…down. Like seriously. Or maybe 2015 was pretty darn awesome that my blog couldn’t keep up with the pace of my lifestyle! ☀✌ The moment I’m back home, I unpack, stay home for a week or two and off I go again!

2015 was really a year of awesome-ness filled with great people in it! If there’s one word to describe the year, it would be a year of exploration. (2014 : Breakthrough, 2013 : Learning) I was pushed out of my comfort zone, trying new things, so many “first’s”, epic new experiences and I’m glad things happened the way it did! A lot to be thankful for 🙂

#1 – WE GOT ENGAGED! ❤ ❤ 

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This gotta be the highlight of the year (life)! It was our 3rd year anniversary and Marc decided that it’s time to get someone to do his laundry for life. He got down on one knee on the beach, with the sunset as our backdrop. And now, we are going to get married! Yay!

We don’t know how our future is going to be but we know that it will be helluva of a ride! We talked about how we will rush in the mornings because we will be both late for work (ugh, I’ll have a longer travel time when I get married), how we say we will make each other breakfast but in reality, we will just have instant coffee and bread, how we would really like to watch football together but I’ll just leave him and do my own thing. Or how we are gonna play futsal as a family and do fun things together! It’s gonna be funny and a lot of hard work!

For now, it’s the wedding planning and I don’t know who creates this culture of having big weddings, because it ain’t fun and it uses a lot of money! Even for small weddings, there are so many details to be taken care of.

Why can’t I sign the papers and just fly off to our honeymoon? Haha.

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Is Malaysia STILL worth fighting for?

Today is my nation’s 58th year of independence. I can’t help but to think how so much have changed in the recent years.

My Prime Minister is accused of having RM2.6 billion of public funds transferred to his personal account, our government owned investment company (1MDB) is unable to account to us where the crap is our tax money of RM42 billion, 6% of GST have just been implemented in March this year and our currency has dropped from USD1=RM2.9 to USD1=RM4.2 in just a year. These are the most recent news that have been flooding our FB timeline and media.

More than that, gone were the days where we could run around in our neighbourhood without fearing of getting kidnapped, when crime rates weren’t as bad, when we could buy 1 week of groceries with RM100 or when the education system was way better back then.

All these saddens me.

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