It’s been 3 weeks since I started my new job in downtown KL. Travel time has increased significantly to 1.5 hours per way and I would have to start my day much much earlier. Commute has gotta be one of the most tiring thing yet peaceful because this is the only time I can be truly alone with myself. I mean, that vs sleep. I don’t know. Why can’t I have both?
I was very aware of the opportunity cost to take this new role but I did not expect at how this would affect me greatly. I would look at Asher’s pictures on my phone every single work day. Sometimes, I would cry looking at these pics.. wondering how is he like at school. The funny thing is that it’s not the first month or year that we’re apart like this. Maybe because it’s the lesser quality time that we get to spend together before and after work.
Weekends now are so so precious. It’s exhausting really, but I treasure every single moment I get to spend with him because when Monday comes, it’s back to the grind again. I try to create as many memories with him even if they can be mundane. I just crave more quality time with him.
I’m so conflicted.
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